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Chronicle of liz.

Felt an urgent need to press down this feeling, yes at 1am on an early Saturday morning. Cos I just stepped out of the shower and met a lizard. You may wonder why I cringe every single time I see it, let me fill you in…

I vividly remember that early morning in year 2000, I was routinely waiting for the school bus to pick me up for school. I leaned against a lamp post after settling down my school bag. As I was gazing in the direction of where the school bus will be coming, I felt something slipping down my back. I shook my whole being so vigorously and the thing slipped out from under my uniform and dropped onto the floor. I looked down and saw a lizard scurrying away. I can’t remember if that 8 years old Yoyo cried. But it definitely scarred her so badly.

The next day, I had rashes all over my body. The rashes were angry, red and itchy and it spreads throughout my body in random arrangement. They looked like clouds that popped from my skin. It took me days to recover. I was flabbergasted by that creature ever since.

So back to the present, where I met a lizard after stepping out of the shower… It clang itself onto the corner of the wall. I did not have my specs on and all I see is a patch of brown. I hurried out into the living room, wore my specs and went back to take a closer look. Its body curved in such great flexibility that my body can never achieve; its skin semi translucent and I can see bits of contents inside its body; its tail is long and meanders along the corner of the wall. I stood at a safe distance and watched it till it was out of sight.

They say ‘do something that scares you everyday’. There was once I really tried to capture a young tiny baby lizard, armed with a plastic bag in hand and several layers of tissue…but I never got to it. It takes a lot of courage to step out of my fear and I wasn’t brave enough. I’ve failed myself time and time again. I have no idea how some people live with this kind of creature as pets. I guess I will never ever understand, neither do I want to try to understand.

Maybe one day, I will be able to do it. Catching lizards, by myself, regardless of how big it is. One day.