This is it. My december just have to start this way. Definitely one of the saddest moment in my life today. So dejected and I’ve really lost all my hope. About everything that’s gna happen for next sem, for the whole 6 months, is this how it is? I think I’ve pinned too much hopes on this and it explains how Im really not feeling too good about it.
Fine, part and parcel of life!
Underneath the skin, is a heart that’s bleeding.
Underneath that heart Im bleeding, Im waiting,
can you make me feel what Im feeling.
‘Cause this world dont ask, it takes, it steals.
Can you feel this heart is beating, like a drum it’s beating it’s calling out to you.
Will you come and rain on this desert heart, like only you can do?
Can you hear this soul is crying, my soul is crying, calling out to you.
Will you come and wash over me? Like only you can do.
Will you be, my freedom? Will you be, my freedom?
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Not being emotional just……. tryina feel the song? Ytd someone said, ‘Feel! As a dancer you must be able to feel the music.’ Yea I knw that but when I panic… another issue alr! :O Kay tmrw’s the day! I have alot of time to feel hope I’d not screw up!
And smth is bugging me! I thought we’re friends but if that’s the way you treat friends then well, I guess there’s nth more I can say.
I think I need a holiday. I have quite alot of things to get off my mind. I’m stressed out for small little issues that comes in a quantity. It’s not abt being optimistic anymore. When people dont listen, there’s nothing you can do?
But I’m kind of in a debt. I owe Jace Mom and Agnes so before I return them I’d not go MIA.
Im thinking if Im rich, I’d prolly be travelling alot. But the thing is after these 18 years, still I don’t dare to sleep alone! Nay 
If one day I could conquer being in the dark alone; and kill lizards, I’d be invincible! HOHO! Nonetheless, both are very hard to achieve!!!!!!!!!!! How can I do this?! Maybe I should give myself till end of this year, to learn to sleep alone. As for murdering lizards…. I think making friends w/ it might be easier?
I could die studying marketing….. Thank god there’s 2 more days to complete the memorizing of notes. It’s 12pm now and I’m at lecture 4! 9 bloody more lectures to go! Wondering what good will my lecturer gain by not giving us more tips…. Why can’t they all learn from Doctor Badri?! 😦 sux2beme. And there’s 101 distractions at home!!!!???
Long day ahead
Hello wordpress! IM BACK! HEHE 😀
A lot of things had happened but I havent got the chance to record it down cause recently I’ve been mad busy. I have not on my laptop for a very long time alr and blogging using iTouch = tedious = rather dont blog. HEHE that explains why. I havent been working and w/ my new CCA there is really alot to commit. Im thinking of quitting my job alr but NO, CAUSE my purpose of finding a job in the first place is to earn enough for driving and well, well, well, not enough yet. Im a big spender chew know.
Today my confidence rolled down to the minimum and it’s an embarrassing moment to be frank. Well, sux2Bme. Bye.
Dear wordpress, Im pissed today by * who doesnt know how to practise respect. When I tell * smth that is obviously a secret I dont expect * to be a loudspeaker and tell everyone. Although its not smth serious but I JUST DONT WANT OTHERS TO KNOW. Fuckin annoying just shut up and let it go! Kns.
Since I’ve alr decided to go for it, I am feeling kinda nervous and scared alr. Gosh, I pray that awkward parts would be over in no time and would really be like what Andrea said, ‘when you think back you’d think that it’s actually nth to be nervous abt.’ let’s hope for the best!
Ppl have been encouraging me and it’s really nice to know that. Love y’all! Update again later!
I finally had time to update! Had been working really hard for the past few days and yes, I no longer revel in it. I had a very hard time working while standing up and made a whole bunch of new acquaintances and well, neutral to all.
I had a lot to say abt work but I thought it’d be good if I privatise it.
Anyway, VC tmrw w/ Qas! It’s like the best thing I can look forward to in this whole entire week! C U 😉
I just came back from work and Im really really really sad nao… Really fucking sad but Im too tired to cry alr. The reason is lame but Im really sad over this matter. 7 ppl knew why cos I spreaded it around like fire and I think they think it’s really lame but…
Sigh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY LIKEDAT?!
On wind, on wing 